I just relized how I tricked myself into getting my heart broken, its like I'm self destructing in every possible way. I jumped into bed just to loose my virginity and told myself that I wouldn't get hurt. After a couple of days the truth comes out and he supposedly has a girlfriend. He said he didn't have one to me ofc.. And I was so naive and dumb and believed his stupid ass. He said he didn't want a relationship and I convinced myself that I didn't want that either because I was moving in a couple of months. So we decided to just be "friends" with benefits. NOT A GOOD IDEA! He has a heart of ice and is a master of not catching feelings for anyone, me on the other hand, not so cold. So yea, I fucked up and caught feelings for some guy that couldn't care less. He just wanted sex, and I guess I did too, but I got greedy and I wanted someone to love me. Even if he was straight up with me with the hole relationship part, it still hurt. I feel like I let myself down, and I'm now so distracted and can't get anything done lately. I'm usually so focused and determined, but I guess life's not always easy. I said to my self that what we had was just sex, no feelings. But sadly the truth is that for me it was more than that, and the hardest part is releasing I was just an other girl to him. He is STILL on my mind, and it's killing me. How did it come to this ? And how am I going to feel better? Some please help ..