Kayla had a party last night and Madi is telling me what went down. Shiann is coming in tomorrow not today. I think I'm gonna see lexi tomorrow though. Ugh. I MISSED LEXI SO MUCH OMG I HAVE TO TELL HER SO MUCH GOSSIP ABOUT EVERYONE! I never really gossip but when I do it's usually with her. It sucks so much that she isn't here and I never get to see her. Gram has been v irritable and it's draining me. Gram started yelling at me again while driving. She says she can drive herself but she can't and GG agreed with me but nobody is helping me with her... I'm so tired and emotional. I'm tired of being yelled at. I crave affection and I'm not getting it. I feel so annoying to everyone and when people don't answer my texts or something I get anxiety and feel like I'm being clingy and I just don't want to feel this way. Saw Becky and dad. Becky gave me a gift card to h&m. We went to Landry's and then watched impractical jokers.