I feel so lonely. I want love, but it’s been two years since we broke up and I still can’t shake off the way he made me feel so unloveable. Im hard to love, I understand. I’m complicated, complex, heavy to hold. It’s been two years but I’m still scared to put myself out there, because the way he made me feel is still etched into my mind. I don’t know if I’ll ever survive him. If I’ll ever gain my sense of self back. If I’ll ever forgive myself for allowing him to treat me that way, if I’ll ever realise that I deserved better, if I ever accept that I can be loved.