So today at practice Mia was getting in her little mood that everyone hates cuz it's stupid and she's just trying to get a attention so we were like "Phil!" And she didn't get it but it was funny af 😂👏🏼 and she was telling Danielle and Bella about it after practice all sad and wanting to cry and my dad was like "fuck her that's what she deserves, fucking rat. What a bitch. Good thing you're not like me or else I would've beat her ass already." And then he said "so when she was talking about Karma being a bitch was she talking about you guys or her cuz you guys Karma'd the crap out of her but she still hasn't learned her lesson so keep it up." 😂😂😂 I do not like Mia whatsoever now I couldn't care less about that two faced bitch 🙃🙃 I told Emily for secret Santa to get her the eyebrow pallet called two face ☺️✌🏼️ idgaf anymore. I don't like Mia and I don't care if she knows or not 😊😊😊 OH OK and then Lupe is not helping my life he wanted to talk to me during lunch and asked what I thought about the relationship and I was like "what do you mean?" And he was like " I know you're new to this kind of stuff so you shouldn't be afraid to open up to me. And I need you here for me too because I don't open up to many people and I need you here because I get lonely you know?" And I was like " yea I get you but I'm used to being independent and solving my stuff on my own. Like don't think I'm upset at you or anything cuz I'm not but I've just had a rough week with basketball and stuff ok?" And he was like "yea I knew you're not used to all this drama and whatever but just know I'm here.. Do you get upset when I try to get intimate with you? Or do you think I'm clingy?" In my head I was like "Hell yea you're clingy" but I just said " I don't get mad about it why?" And he was like "I just want my intimacy to mean something, like when we hold hands I want it to mean something not just cuz everyone does it and when I kiss you I want it to mean something not just do it because that's what you're supposed to do." And I was like "yea I get you. And sorry if I've seemed upset at you cuz it's not that I'm mad at you I'm mad at everything that's going on and I haven't been me. I haven't been happy. I'm still upset about this because it bothers me so much" and I was just kinda whatever about it I don't know. Maybe I'm not ready for a relationship. Sorry that I want to deal with my own problems by myself.