unintentional social media spiral . stalking the wedding video of that girl from high school who went to prom once with the guy i went to prom with once, trying to reconcile the charisma and luxury (and the wish for a big ol party for our wedding) and apparent godliness with the whiteness and the nuvo-colonialism feel. tried to take a catnap reset but felt compelled to scope out the facebook depths of the mysterious and kind girl i met on the trip . why am i do this. still???!