Sometimes I'm brought to nausea by the shallowness, self absorbed, self entitled people of this world. Sometimes I just want to bring suffering upon all life. Feelings of self loathing and hypocrisy trigger further nausea. Sometimes I wish I didn't have the natural human need for social interaction or that I could get this satiated by other means than human contact. When I was little I wondered why 'villains' on TV or in books wanted to destroy the world, and now I understand. Heroes in disguise... Attempting to put out all misery and disgust.