can someone give me advice lol / um / there’s a boy who brings me an incredible amount of joy, his light is unbelievably bright, but even so the happiness at his presence in my life, as omnipresent as it is, as much as it covers my skin and enlivens my face irreparably for all to take notice of whenever I am around him, (not but really. my face won’t freaking stop hurting, and I -cackle-, BELLY cackle just about every five minutes at this kid) - joy / STOPS / just short. of . my sOUL. for no other reason that he isn’t HIM, the one who broke my heart so recently, the first one who I thought in the deepest cockles of my core was the 1. he doesn’t have a silver tongue, but a golden heart and blindingly aloof and light spirit. he and won’t blow your mind with theological parallels but simple truths. joys. measured in living, liberal humility. you can’t rationalize your way through healing. you can communicate. you can smile. you can seek the Lord who is the beginning and end of all things. you can sit and stutter and say “I want to believe you’ll be there for me.” I’d like to keep our smiles. please. but I will cease if it’s not His will. I won’t cease if it’s some taboo social construct that I simply shouldn’t date because I just got done dating. I want this person in my life... - says my battered bean