Gram woke me up and I helped her with newsletters 😒 drove to the post office to deliver them. Laid in bed. I'm irreversibly depressed and I know everyone always says things get better but it's been years and things haven't gotten better. Why can't I be happy? I have no resolutions this year. Why bother? Things never get better. It's hard being the ugly friend. All my friends are so beautiful and I'm really not. I look at Kailey or Paulina or Lexi or Tori or Kenny and Steph and then at me and I hate myself. 🎧 Horchata- vampire weekend