I am so sick of having asthma. It seems like I can't get it under control again. I feel miserable and I can't breathe good. I just read that allergies after it rains, effects those with asthma..well it had been raining since last night and I feel horrible. Wish it would stop raining. Its probably the stupid chemicals in the sky that is coming down. who knows. Or it could just be that its spring. I used to like spring but now i hate it. Nvm I won't hate spring but I hate my lungs, and my immune system. I don't know what to do and I have a crappy dr that doesn't help me at all. I have meridian insurance, guess I get what I pay for. But still, doctors should take care of all patients, to help all. And the only reason why I picked Dr Dona is because someone I know told me he was a good dr. *sigh* guess if I could just get on a medicine that actually works. But with meridian, they only allow you to have crappy medicine available and prevent you from getting medicine that actually works. Meridian sucks. I hate this world and how it operates in insurance. Why isn't there asthma medicine that works great, out on the shelves, or even behind the pharmacy counter where you can just buy it from there? And here I am trying to vent out my frustration while people who control everything just sit back and watch and laugh as they see people suffer.