Still haven't done the photoshop project for avocado. Whoops. Kyle showed me this conservative argument generator and it was really funny. Holli said "let's call Kayla " and it kinda broke my heart. Shelby called Knotts mom all period. Mom didn't pick me up so I waited in the cold for like thirty minutes before I called gram. Steph and Kenny came over. We went to Starbucks and Walgreens and albertsons. I've started writing again. I'm not very good 😂 but I hope that I can write the way I used to be able to write. I found Electra Heart ( the song ) on Spotify!! I'm so excited I thought it was like Lonely Hearts Club and was only released in Great Britain or some shit. Omg I'm so excited. I started thinking about Electra Heart and her story and how much of a genius Marina is with the Archetypes and what great storytelling that is. Electra was so demented and troubled, similar to me. Ugh I wish more people knew about Electra Heart or even Crybaby's stories so we could discuss them in depth and compare them and explore the deepest parts of ourselves. I literally crave depth and meaning and I haven't found it yet and I'm struggling with that. I want to be more than another mere being. I want to be majestic and important. Looking back on these memories and seeing the names of certain people popping up makes me almost angry. I trusted so many people, even last year that I shouldn't have. I'm just glad I have the one person who would never betray me, Kailey, I love her so much more than she knows. She's saved me. Without her I don't know what I would do. I don't feel so alone anymore. I used to feel so alone all of the time.