I don't know how much more I can take. They say everything happens for a reason. They say if you focus on just learning and being confident in yourself that it will translate, but it's not. I have given my all and sacrificed everything else so that I can make the biggest difference. I know my information, yet it isn't translating. I have no idea what the fuck more I can do. I have been through twisted fuck up shit and came on top, yet what is destroying me is medical school, a hardship that should be trivial to everything else I have experienced.