I want anyone reading this to know you’re not alone and i want to make this public to people know. I don’t know how to do this anymore. I’m really considering running away into that forest and clearing my mind and living alone. I feel so alone and I have nothing. I tried to clear my mind at paint balling yesterday but we didn’t end up playing until 2;30 and then my gun was jammed. I got to play one game at 3:30 and I got out without shooting my gun at a person. My life gets worse and worse everyday and I try to gain back the strength and it doesn’t work. Like what am I supposed to think she lied about going places which i completely understand because she isn’t entitled to tell me anything and it’s on her Snapchat and instagram like you’re lying but THE PROOF IS ON YOUR SOCIAL media’s. I keep letting my mind wonder what was she doing there. She lets a girl just kiss her on the lips without care so what could she be doing. I just wanna know what did I do do wrong, how did this happen to me. I did nothing to no one I am nice to everyone that shows me any respect. I just wanna wake up from this nightmare I don’t understand i did nothing. I just wanna scream