I want to remember the reason why I was brave enough to not go home with you tonight and decided to just stay at the office.

You abandoned me again. If I forgive and forget about it again, you will abandon me again the next time. And the next time, and the next time, and the time after that. It's the same song I've been hearing from you ever since I met you. You just play it out so well in different ways. Through the years, you have mastered the art of hurting me and killing my heart of every little bit of hope I have towards a lived happily ever after life with you.

I WILL NEVER GET USED IT.

I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY YOU CHOOSE TO NEVER WANT TO END ANY DAY WITHOUT SEEING EVERY LITTLE THING AS MY FAULT BECAUSE EVERY DAY I PRAY TO HAVE THE STRENGTH AND WISDOM TO KNOW HOW TO BE THE GIRL THAT YOU WOULD BE HAPPY WITH.

Ninety percent of my life was spent on loving you. They said if you keep giving love regardless of how you are treated, they will eventually learn to give the love back to you. I know that no matter what, I will love you forever.
I just don't know how long I can live through it.

You said it didn't matter to you if I slept by your side or not. Then it wouldn't matter to you if I slept here for one night or a thousand nights. I am nothing more to you than a mere action figure....

I know, I know.

You don't know what I'm talking about.