On October 7th 2016 I wrote: “Sometimes I feel so close to you that if I close my eyes I can nearly touch your soul... And this makes me so sad because you barely see me instead.” Well, many things happened since that day: we hang out a lot, we were so close that we couldn't stay apart for more than three days in a row, we argued and made up many times, we laughed together, but i also cried a lot because in the meantime you saw other girls and I was so beside myself with rage that I said enough. We didn't see or talk to each other for two years, then a message, you trying to get closer again... but my heart belonged to another guy. Fast forward to 2024: I have a little girl and a husband, but every now and then I think about you, because you were my first love and my greatest “what if”.