Right now I'm sitting with Dino and he's telling me to do my hair and my nails while we are sitting in the window staring at the rain that's been falling since last night. Last time I recorded anything here, I was still living with my grandparents... I think.... Now I have my own (with a roommate) apartment. I've been here for three weeks now, it's slowly coming together from being the filthy run down mess it was when I first moved in. Current event I am feeling passionate about is the protesting happening in Ferguson, Missouri over the killing/shooting of a teenager at the hands of a police officer who is not being identified. The name and race of the officer isn't being released currently. I would like to know what is going to come from so many people, black people at that... coming together to rise up against all the police brutality that has occurred more and more frequently over these past few years. Been feeling like I want/need to be more active in what the current events are in this world and in my nation. Been seriously thinking of joining the military but that is a very conflicting thought considering I don't agree with my government so why would I want to work for them? So much has been on my mind lately, I know that my passion is being ignited like a fire. I've taken a step back from being so active in my church any longer because I feel myself being pulled into the direction of being more active in my generation and helping those my age be more away to whatis really going on . I had a dreaam last night that mde me realize how I view the world and how I really feel... sad that I needed a dream to make me realize how I actually feel but hey... stress can do that to aperson. the dream was all over the place but in the end of the dream I knew that the doctors and the neighborhood house wives and the people who were supposedly my family and all the rest of the people including the man I am with were asleep to me.. I felt like they weren't in on what was really going on and that I would be killed for actually knowing the truth. I don't know whywhere I'm going to go from here butI know the transitional phase my life was in is so close to be in the next direction that Its takin gover my thought process.