I am addicted to my phone. I woke up feeling negatively about my body. Joyless. Unabsorbent. Where is the heart that transformed dissociation and depression into an outward love for God that astounded me every day in its reciprocal power? Is he waiting for me to break my own weak willed patterns of mind, even though with every trapped misstep I take, His name is begged on every tortured and ineffectual breath ??????????????