I can’t stop thinking about Pa. Nan’s words at the end of her speech keep replaying over and over in my head. “Rest in peace my darling Andy, you don’t have to wake up in the morning”. It’s crushing my soul, I hear it on repeat constantly. I have so much nervous energy. I’m so sad for Nan, I’m sad for Pa. I’m just sad, and I never even got to say thank you or goodbye.