I've realised that the hard things are easy to forget. Why is that? Why are the hard things the easiest to forget? I want all of it gone, yes, but I want it resolved first. I don't want it in a closet where it will creep out of clothes and among shoes to remind me I'm not alone at night.
I just want to be steady. Safe. Serene. I want my life to resemble the way I feel in rain and Autumn. Is it not possible?