after my dad left for work i went down to his home desk. i gathered all the loose papers and receipts. i hung his race medal and headphones. i planted a poster my sister couldn’t take to college + pen drawings + pictures from his germany honeymoon and new york trip on the wall. i hung deep blue lights. i want him to feel ok. conner says he’s sorry but i know i’ve hit a sore spot when i ask if he wanted to see my face.