Today was better. You were grumpy in the morning and took it out on your love but you read a good book for a bit and it allowed you just the right amount of time away from your mind and thoughts and surrounding world to gain some perspective on your emotions in the present moment. Right now you are a student of life.... something you know that you always will be however, being a student of life has never felt more "do or die" than now. Right now the lessons you are trying to teach yourself have the possibility to fully change the way you live drastically... and it sort of is do or die in a sense where the life you want to have is at stake. Do or die. Learn or die.