i used to be so good at not getting my hopes up and being ready for things to turn out bad. and now being with you and knowing you, it’s made me look on the bright side of things and have hope, which sounds like a really good thing. but now everything is going really badly and disappointing again and i cant seem to keep my hopes down anymore. it hurts a lot more this way but i don’t know how to fix it. you give me hope.