I feel like I have to get my shit together and focus on what's important. At this moment all I can think of is HIM and how much I want to be with him and how little he wants to be with me. We are just friends with benefits and that's all I get, I don't get to be greedy and wanting him to love me. I have to admit that this is going to hurt like a motherfucker... I should just end this right now before I get even more in love with the thought of calling him mine .. I am stupid, but I can't help it, love leads to bad decisions