Dear lil journal. Fat is not a feeling. But I don't think I am fat. I am fat chubby. U can't say I am not fat I have 2 rolls on my stomach. I am the thing that people at my school laugh at and point at I feel the depression in my body head and soul I am 11 and in 5 th grade how do u think u would feel at my age.... Trying to starve myself so I am skinny and beautiful and and that people will like me. I will never find true happiness