I've convinced myself that I have to be independent. People slow you down, they only be friends with you to get benefits from your hard work, they lie about everything, they're fake, when they said they loved you they actually don't, they judge you behind your back, they wished you never existed...

I just need that out of my system. I've been crying and feeling so under the weather for three days straight, I don't want to spiral down into depression again, I just got treated...I just got out of the dark hole that I was trapped in. Why does people love pushing you back down? Then they blame you for being depressed and tells you that you're just a selfish attention whore...

I'm afraid that if I don't get this out of my system and just bottle it up inside I'd just break...does people really want others to go insane that much?

I'm just a weak bitch...ok...I guess I am.