6:04 a.m.- I had another dream about Ethan. Why is he always there when I need someone to save me. I had a dream that we had a party but it was the end and I fell asleep and Ethan fell asleep next to me and then we woke up to the sound of fire alarms, well he woke me up bc of the fire alarm and he grabbed my hand and took my outside and then went back to get everyone else. Our living was destroyed completely consumed in flames but the rest of the house was okay. And then he was there for me for everything he kept staying the night at my house and he would go out to get me food because I didn't want to do anything. And then we went to the track meet and I wasn't competing but I was talking to Alan and he was like "you and Ethan are getting pretty close" and I said "nah" and I leaned back bc we were sitting on the grass and then Ethan was there. Why do I keep dreaming about him. I want to tell him I like him but I can't. I'm too scared. Everything works out in my dreams but seeing Tyler and Francis not work out yesterday makes me scared. I need to stop being scared and take a chance. J like him so freaking much and I can't stop having dreams about him.