I don't know what to believe in, I want to believe in God but it sounds like absolute bullshit to me. I want to believe in God, I really do. But I don't want my life to revolve around this one thing that I don't even know is real. Cause what if he isn't, I would've just wasted my whole life listening to what the bible says and having to be restricted from everything to be "pure" and "holy".