Another July 4 alone. Spent it with my mom at the house. The last few days I felt overwhelmingly lonely. Telling myself it's so hard to find friends, I can't find friends. Well, if I say that, it will most likely come true. I feel better today, because I'm not stuck in my head. I have to create purpose. I am valuable. Follow my goals and follow my dreams. It's not just going to happen.