I have to decide what to do. I can't reach out to him until then... I have a general idea of what my plans are, but it will just have to take work and time for me to get them right. It is KILLING me that I can't even call until I am ready... but I'm afraid that more vagueness will only dishearten him further. I never never can understand this, why he simply can't believe in my love. I'm sure his heart is seriously broken. Good thing I can carry us 💕 it seems mine was too big in the first place. The parts that broke off were probably needed more by others elsewhere.