Dear person who wrote, “I want to kill myself.” I know. Believe me, I know it feels like no one can understand your brokenness, your hurt and anguish, your feeling of desperation and just wanting to get the hell away from everyone and everything. I know. I’ve been there. Right where you are, thinking about all the different ways you could end your own life, end this suffering. In 2017 I tried to drown myself. A lot of bad shit was happening all at once and I just couldn’t take it anymore, I wanted out. I tried to drown myself and even though now I’m doing better, I’ve been left with PTSD because of it. Trust me when I say that the reason you feel so awfully hopeless and unloved right now is because you have to experience the lowest low moments to appreciate the highest high moments. Feeling good seems so, so, so far away right now, but I swear to you that it will get better soon. All you have to do is breathe. Take life one minute at a time. You can get through this minute. Once this minute is done, make it a goal to get through the next minute. I know you don’t feel strong right now, I know you feel defeated, but your demons have not won. Have the courage to survive this minute, and the next minute. Before long you’ll find yourself in a much better place. You will feel strong, happy, and at peace. You will have good days and beautiful moments. I promise. (and, of course, if you are planning on harming yourself, I think it goes without saying that you should absolutely reach out to someone. text 741741 (crisis text line for the US) or 1-800-273-8255 (national suicide prevention lifeline for the US)) I believe you can do it. I believe you are lovely and wonderful and a beautiful person who is worthy of all the love and joy the world has to offer, no matter who you are or what you’ve done. I love you and I’m here for you. No matter what. Please don’t give up yet, if you need a reason, stay alive for me. This world needs you. It sounds cliché but the world wouldn’t be the same without you. You will do so many great things in your life. You’ll find beauty in the small things and help others find peace, you’ll make a difference. I love you, I need you to stay alive for me, okay? I know you don’t know me and i don’t know you, but i really do care for you and your well-being. It’s going to be okay, I promise. 💕