Today is just one of those days where I can't seem to stay positive. I just want to cry and throw my self the biggest pity party this county has ever seen. I've been doing so much, making sweets to send my friends, wrapping presents, playing Christmas music, praying to God that things will stay good... They just aren't. My mom is psycho and keeps telling me everyday that she can't stand me. She ignores me when I talk and am in a good mood and she just leaves the room. I'm just done. Fed up. Finito! I'm tired of feeling like I'm not enough, not doing enough, not good enough for anyone. It's dumb, I know. But how I feel...