I'm not a person who's really close with god, but lately I feel like I'm being tested by him. Just the other day, I had to do something I had never done before. I was lucky enough I knew what I was doing so I was okay. And even yesterday, I had to go against my mother's rules in order to protect myself. And since so many things have been happening to me (mostly things I hope that'll never happen) I feel like God is watching me and putting me in situations that were once unthinkable. It seems like I'm accusing god of making me fearful, but I feel like this is the simplest way I can describe it. I don't know...maybe it's just a part of growing up. Making decisions on your own, doing things for the first time... just experiencing in general.