there's no way that overcompensation is always a bad thing. for example i am not and will never be respected within my own family. so to push myself even harder and work to garner respect for not only me but people like me anywhere else possible isn't a bad thing, even though it is technically overcompensation. my point is today i really learned that certain people do not respect me and that sometimes respect is not worth fighting for in specific people. i do not need to be respected by my parents. but i do need to be respected by myself and i need to stop connecting my self-respect with the amount of respect my parents have for me. i respect myself more than my parents ever will. and i will stop at nothing to become someone that is more and more respectable in my own eyes every single day.