sometimes you just have to wake up and walk. crazy how you can walk in the Lord and feel unbound to any earthly thing yet the only thing holding you back from perfect communion is your own mind. what I would give to spend a day in which I didn’t feel like I was on the brink of death just because my mind refused to sit rightly in my body anymore. how can i minister to others in such a state? but perhaps i am depriving my body of a physiological fix. for choosing not to, say, eat food is not an act of faith