went to paint pottery with everyone. made a mug with eyes all around it. once it’s fired it’ll be a bright, bold red. went to moe’s with brynn and lauren while everyone finished up their pieces. we walk around the shops. i let kenz and Lauren dress me up in stupid clothes at dillards. a pantsuit and a skirt and a sweater vest to be exact. lauren has to walk away because she can’t look at me without laughing. kenz laughs until she cries. i go home. i sleep till 9 and think i could do it again. and i do. i dream about flying for the first time. i hate my face and my smile. it’s all haunting. i prop my foot up on the sink and get real close to the mirror. exposure therapy. i stay there until the hate expires. it kills me every time.